Our recent guest, Sabine Gedeon likened her journey of transformation unto the metamorphosis that a butterfly goes through. She learned through research just how uncomfortable the process truly is.
In their caterpillar phase the butterfly spends most of its time at earth’s lowest station eating as much as it can. Upon a signal from nature the caterpillar leaves the ground, climbs onto a tree and ushers in the process of “death”, shedding any resemblance of the caterpillar they once were.
“Their insides are completely splattered and turned into a soup-like mush. They undergo metamorphosis at the cellular level.”Sabine Gedeon
Sabine asks us to imagine voluntarily surrendering every part of ourselves knowing we will be nothing like our former nature. Can you imagine giving in to the plan of our Creator without question or hesitation?
“Much like a caterpillar’s metamorphosis, which takes place in stages, I’ve experienced the process of transformation in stages; the first being my surrender to the complete process of discovering a hidden truth.”Sabine Gedeon
It’s still difficult for Sabine today to use the word rape. It’s the meaning of the word that bothers her, and she never wants to be identified as a rape victim. It happened when she was seven years old.
“My mind wasn’t even developed enough to process it at seven, and it’s not who I am.”Sabine Gedeon
Sabine was destroyed at a cellular level many times during her life. By the time she was 25 she hated herself and wanted to stop the pain. She set out a plan for suicide and gave God an ultimatum. He showed up in her room as she was about to take a handful of pills, and she felt him wrap his arms around her.
“I don’t carry guilt, and I don’t carry shame”.Sabine Gedeon
A powerful statement from Sabine, who lived a sad and horrible life from the day of her birth. She has had to understand the emotional and logical side of every actor in her story – her mother, her father, her aunt, her siblings, etc.
Love equals pain, hurt and disrespect in Sabine’s past. She’s learned to have compassion for people in her life who were living the cycle of abuse. Many times, abuse is generational. Sabine has finally broken that cycle.
“Words of affirmation and quality time are my top two love languages. I never had either growing up. My mother never told me she loved me. I am breaking the cycle of those messages now. I have to give myself the things I’m not getting from others.”Sabine Gedeon
Sharing her story has given permission for many other people to share their story for the first time. Survivors of abuse and trauma often begin to heal when they start verbally telling their stories.
“The Sabine today is forever evolving, curious and excited. Life is a journey, it’s a path with winding roads, ditches, valleys, mountains, and snakes. I had to forgive my dad so I could build a relationship with God”.Sabine Gedeon
Sabine is a coach with empathy and compassion who meets her clients where they are. She is honest and transparent about herself so her clients can be the same. Some of her family relationships have healed, but she recognizes her mother is who she is, and if Sabine sets boundaries she controls possible hurtful situations.
Life and leadership are the focus of Sabine’s coaching business. She helps people practice vulnerability and gives them tools to be effective leaders.
“When I saw someone I admired I always wondered about their story. For me to stand up and speak, I had to go through some things. I can do it now. Nothing we experience or encounter is vain. It’s all pieces in a puzzle that creates our story to be accepted and loved. I can better relate to people now.”Sabine Gedeon
On The Journey to Becoming Podcast Sabine shares the stories of women who have become coaches, authors, and speakers. She shares the truth and the full picture so her audience can see that the valley they are currently in is temporary and soon there will be another mountain to summit.